Notebooks to the Past

I randomly find notebooks that I have used for various things, like classes or work or just for passing notes between friends. It never ceases to drop me into a nostalgic place when I get the chance to look back and read things from my past. I came across a little jotter pad from RA training a few years ago that I had used to have a conversation unheard between myself and another RA. Almost instantly I was sent back to the moment passing the little notepad back and forth, to the evening we had sat and talked on my futon while she vented her frustrations with her girlfriend of the time. It was nice to visit those moments because they reminded me of where I have come from, my journey to where I am now. I enjoy getting those moments from time to time, even if they were bad moments they still make me smile. There is a downside to these moments though, when you seek them out and intentionally try and live in them. Living in those past moments leaves little time to keep moving forward and creating new and even more exciting moments to stumble across. The best part of just happening across those things is that it just happens, its a surprise. I'm sure one day I will just happen across the letter that my fiancee wrote to me and when I do I will be transported back to the day that I opened it, to the moment I read it, and maybe even to that first smile she gifted me with or the many nights spent on skype together. If I had continued to seek out the past moments from before I would never have these new moments to look back on with her and if I get stuck in these moments being created now then I will miss out on creating new moments with her and any future children we have.